I feel your situation resonate with me so maybe this’ll help.
I’ve recently been diagnosed for PTSD due to neglect. Not extreme neglect like locking me up or abandoning me or anything. Just an emotionally exhausted and depressed widowed mother and an inability to connect with most my family.
My brain is deeply unsatisfied by this explanation, to the point of searching for a repressed memory or almost “envying” what I considered “real trauma”.
But it is just that simple, I was emotionally neglected as a child combined with undiagnosed ADHD, Autism, Depression, and being trans. This has resulted in PTSD that got so bad that thunder gave me a panic attack from inside my bedroom.
I feel your situation resonate with me so maybe this’ll help.
I’ve recently been diagnosed for PTSD due to neglect. Not extreme neglect like locking me up or abandoning me or anything. Just an emotionally exhausted and depressed widowed mother and an inability to connect with most my family.
My brain is deeply unsatisfied by this explanation, to the point of searching for a repressed memory or almost “envying” what I considered “real trauma”.
But it is just that simple, I was emotionally neglected as a child combined with undiagnosed ADHD, Autism, Depression, and being trans. This has resulted in PTSD that got so bad that thunder gave me a panic attack from inside my bedroom.
It’s rage inducing how unsatisfying that is.