Same, I’ve tried and failed way too much. I almost failed a high school drawing class that was pass/fail because I bombed my final (teacher thought I was slacking off… I’m just really slow). I tried one of those do it yourself drawing courses and gave up after a few months after making little progress. I’ve tried and it’s not for me.

I am decent at software dev though. If I have spare time, I’ll work on personal projects, but after a full time job and young kids, there just isn’t much left over. I’m in the middle of a P2P reddit alternative and a strategy game, but neither will be finished anytime soon.

I think those projects are artistic expression as well, because I’m building it not to get paid, but to add something beautiful to the world. I’m sure you have something like that as well.