former bed side nurse here on sick leave till the end of the month. I should start my new job away from patients with normal working hours on October 1st.
I feel drained, even though I eat and sleep well, the best I’ve slept in months, my circadian rhythm is that of a normal human being, I can cook, go shopping, I even play some hobbies now.
Nobody yells at me or makes passive aggressive or backhanded remarks for me to hear.
The 1st. of October is a week away and I don’t believe I’ll be a fully functioning human being by then, most probably I’ll ask for a 2 week sick leave extension.
what worked for you to go back to your normal self?
It will take a year or so to recover.
Don’t give a fuck attitude going forward is a must.
You are trading time for money. Nothing else.
Allow yourself to get bored so you can start doing hobbies again
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I’m sorry but this attitude is greatly contributing to your burnout for sure. Carrying this much anger isn’t healthy, and it wears on you.
I wouldn’t say you “don’t give a fuck about them”, because if you didn’t you wouldn’t hate them and despise them so much. You wouldn’t even have a second thought about them.
You’ve got to address those feelings first.
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Seperate your mental state from your job.
Obviously do your job as required but bare minimum. Don’t get emotionally entangled with coworkers and subjects.
They are all NPCs, not real people, that’s how corporate world operates.
That also means the flip side… Zero animosity, just business. Nothing personal. It takes practice but once you get there. All that shit just slides off like tefflon.
People won’t like you for it but you won’t care.
Like I said, it will take a year. But first step is to acknowledge how inhumane these conditions are.
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god forbid she had to her job of managing. not your problem. it is not your job o make these people like you. your job is to do your job. with that being said, don’t expect favours. people will want blood. doing bare min, legally required is your defense on that.
just don’t give them any vector of attack. remember time for money. do enough to earn your salary, the rest can get fucked.
go home, enjoy time with loved ones, take care of yourself. this system is designed exploit you and the normie NPCs are just that. let them ruin their lives over a shiti pay check.
control your consumption and stack cash, labour will not set you free. cash money will tho
Give a fuck while you’re on the property and don’t give them any space in your mind, heart or soul when you’re gone.
That said, fuck them, hope they burn in hell is the opposite of not giving a fuck since they still get that attention or energy from you. Try to think of them as little as possible and give them as little emotional energy as possible when you do think of them.
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