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Cake day: November 12th, 2025

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  • I wouldn’t say I used to be far-right but at high school, I have some right-wing opinion which is mostly from YouTubers I used to watch as well as I have internalise my homophobia and ableism because I get made fun of being queer and autistic that I felt like something was wrong with me.

    It was around lockdown that I graduated from high school. It made me realise of the times I tried to get validation from my classmates which I never really got. Also, Black Lives Matter was trending on TikTok which made me realise how very shallow right-wing space is with them constantly moving the goalpost and framing certain scenario a certain way to fit to their agenda.

    I still hate myself for it and despite I have changed, I still beat myself over it and wish I can cut myself. Better late than never but I wish I wasn’t that desperate for validation that I think even the slight gay representation is too “on the nose”.


  • As a Discord user, I don’t hate it but ever since lockdown, I’m getting up of many the larger communities are on Discord. It’s really frustrating when the community in question would be whatever product and only way contact custom service is through there and not email (Looking at you, PixelFX) and open-source project where only way to contract devs or ask for help is through Discord as the search engine on Discord is terrible.

    The only reason why I still on Discord despite my annoyance with that chat app is that most people are on there instead of places like Matrix, XMPP or IRC. The three I mention tend to have more a techy-nerd userbase which nothing wrong with that but it hard finding as much niches compare to Discord