I remember seeing memes like this a bunch back when I used reddit, and being a bit confused about what to make of them, because on the one hand the showcased feelings are usually quite relatable to me, but on the other I feel pretty confident that I didn’t suffer abuse as a kid and if anything had a pretty good childhood compared to most people I know.
I’ve just ended up with a sort of “constantly worry about everything while not seeing to know how to function in situations that I feel I should know how handle” out of a combination of anxiety disorders and ASD instead, among others. I’m never sure if I should feel lucky to not go through that kind of childhood trauma or unlucky that my brain apparently has ended up functioning in such a manner regardless. Somehow I can think of a way that either one of those feelings could be disrespectful to someone that did go through it all and that just makes my confusion worse.
I feel your situation resonate with me so maybe this’ll help.
I’ve recently been diagnosed for PTSD due to neglect. Not extreme neglect like locking me up or abandoning me or anything. Just an emotionally exhausted and depressed widowed mother and an inability to connect with most my family.
My brain is deeply unsatisfied by this explanation, to the point of searching for a repressed memory or almost “envying” what I considered “real trauma”.
But it is just that simple, I was emotionally neglected as a child combined with undiagnosed ADHD, Autism, Depression, and being trans. This has resulted in PTSD that got so bad that thunder gave me a panic attack from inside my bedroom.
Basically everything I post was stolen off reddit a couple years ago because I am deeply uncreative and boring. So that’s probably why it looks familiar.
But yeah, it came from r/trollcoping where they have a disclaimer that none of these are cries for help or targeting anyone. it’s just people with mental illness using humor to vent. I saved it because it because I saw myself in it. I’m sorry if anyone feels disrespected, I’m feeling out fediverse as I go and will post different memes based on the kind of feedback I see
Oh I wasn’t trying to say you were disrespecting anyone, I was just idly commenting on how it’s the kind of situation that, since it relates to things other people can be touchy about and because I don’t know how to feel about it, my brain unhelpfuly comes up with plausible (to me) arguments for how all possible feelings I might get disrespect someone, therefore adding to my confusion. That was more thinking out loud on my part as it were.
oh my bad. well then I concur. I enjoyed memes from that place because they felt like double edged swords but I’m both the recipient and also holding the sword. shit’s raw, sometimes
“I am worried, and I ought not to worry, but because I cannot stop worrying, I am worried because I worry. And that is what we call Anxiety, trembling.”
I remember seeing memes like this a bunch back when I used reddit, and being a bit confused about what to make of them, because on the one hand the showcased feelings are usually quite relatable to me, but on the other I feel pretty confident that I didn’t suffer abuse as a kid and if anything had a pretty good childhood compared to most people I know.
I’ve just ended up with a sort of “constantly worry about everything while not seeing to know how to function in situations that I feel I should know how handle” out of a combination of anxiety disorders and ASD instead, among others. I’m never sure if I should feel lucky to not go through that kind of childhood trauma or unlucky that my brain apparently has ended up functioning in such a manner regardless. Somehow I can think of a way that either one of those feelings could be disrespectful to someone that did go through it all and that just makes my confusion worse.
I feel your situation resonate with me so maybe this’ll help.
I’ve recently been diagnosed for PTSD due to neglect. Not extreme neglect like locking me up or abandoning me or anything. Just an emotionally exhausted and depressed widowed mother and an inability to connect with most my family.
My brain is deeply unsatisfied by this explanation, to the point of searching for a repressed memory or almost “envying” what I considered “real trauma”.
But it is just that simple, I was emotionally neglected as a child combined with undiagnosed ADHD, Autism, Depression, and being trans. This has resulted in PTSD that got so bad that thunder gave me a panic attack from inside my bedroom.
It’s rage inducing how unsatisfying that is.
Basically everything I post was stolen off reddit a couple years ago because I am deeply uncreative and boring. So that’s probably why it looks familiar.
But yeah, it came from r/trollcoping where they have a disclaimer that none of these are cries for help or targeting anyone. it’s just people with mental illness using humor to vent. I saved it because it because I saw myself in it. I’m sorry if anyone feels disrespected, I’m feeling out fediverse as I go and will post different memes based on the kind of feedback I see
Oh I wasn’t trying to say you were disrespecting anyone, I was just idly commenting on how it’s the kind of situation that, since it relates to things other people can be touchy about and because I don’t know how to feel about it, my brain unhelpfuly comes up with plausible (to me) arguments for how all possible feelings I might get disrespect someone, therefore adding to my confusion. That was more thinking out loud on my part as it were.
oh my bad. well then I concur. I enjoyed memes from that place because they felt like double edged swords but I’m both the recipient and also holding the sword. shit’s raw, sometimes
“I am worried, and I ought not to worry, but because I cannot stop worrying, I am worried because I worry. And that is what we call Anxiety, trembling.”