I have experimented. I’ll smoke still if I’m feeling ok. But usually just before I sleep. I’ll hit a dry herb vape my wife has and get just enough of it to feel a chill vibe. Then just relax myself to sleep.

I don’t do well on it in a long awake period. But it’s been 2-3 years since I have done that. Maybe I should try.

I think I definitely need a “plan” for when I get high. Like “I’m gonna smoke and watch this movie”. I think the lack of purpose leaves me with anxious thoughts that already exist.

I forget where I heard it. But I’ve quoted it for years.

Weed enhances whatever you are already feeling. So if you want to eat something. Weed makes that so much better. But if you’re smoking weed because you feel anxious, well, don’t be surprised when you get an “enhanced” version of that anxiety.

And I take that to mean that what “enhanced” means could be different for different people. Some may feel like it lets them overcome that anxiety. It enhances their ability to overcome it. Some may double down and actually become more anxious.

I think weed is awesome. I just think that it’s extremely different for different people in different mental states or periods of their life. Which is why I roll my eyes (figuratively) at the dudes at the dispensary telling me about what a strain will do.

Its very complex. Not because of the plant itself even. I think because of how complex our brains are and how we deal with the change weed triggers in them.

I should try more nights smoking in place of alcohol though. And maybe this is the conversation I needed to try that. So thanks.