I’m in this picture except I still love school, I just hate inequality and how capitalism has forced schools to become job training factories.
I’m not mad at school any more.
I’m too fucking tired.
Getting ready to possibly have to sue my kid’s school district because the state implemented a cell phone ban and the district refuses to address the fact that he has a documented history of autistic meltdowns where he goes into full on Flight mode and has made it out of the building on multiple occasions. He kept getting suspended because he’d barrel through any adult that got in his way until he finally calmed down. At like 8 years old mind you, he’s 14 now. “Oh we’ll just set up a BIP.” Oh you mean that thing your staff and faculty IGNORED for fucking years because there was never any mention of any of the fucking outbursts you’d call me about regarding him hitting someone because they refused to leave him alone and you did nothing about when he told you? That BIP?
We didn’t even want to get him a fucking phone in the first place! That’s the compromise we made with the district years ago because they kept losing my fucking kid, refused to okay any other kind of tracker, and adding him to our plan with a cheapo smartphone was the the only one they’d okay that we could afford.
Sorry for the rant. I get really angry when I think about the way my brother and I were screwed over by the public school system and watching it repeat itself in New and Exciting ways with my own kids.
I’m not bi?
Ok, pansexual. Same difference 🤷♂️
Wow wtf that’s suspiciously accurate
buuuuuuut
Modern school is designed to stamp out creativity, compassion, maturity, courage, and critical thinking. It is designed to produce a worker class that is easier to suppress, bully, intimidate, and fool. It accomplishes that goal with ruthless efficiency. Don’t trust me, check out John Gatto, NYC teacher of the year. https://www.cantrip.org/gatto.html
That was a delightful little link. For a moment I was alive in the nineties.
The arrival linked was also very interesting.
Well, I’m on year 12 of my bachelor’s degree and I’m unfortunately not bi. So, not great?
Unfortunately
Your phrasing seems to imply you’d like to be, have you tried?
Well, looking at masc people doesn’t give me the happy feelings like looking at fem people. That isn’t to say that I necessarily wouldn’t enjoy sex with masc people, but I’m not attracted to them.
hey, it took me 7 and i tried 8 different majors. i only left because at year 5 i hated the school and picked the fastest degree to get me out of there. my wife took longer than me. you’ll get there.
I’ve known my major since 6th grade. Never swayed. I do intend to get there, though, come Hell or high water. It’ll look better on a refugee application.
I managed in 6 years, if I include the associate’s degree I got to fix the 2.5 wasted years. And I think going as to undergrad at 18 should be seen as precocious. Backpack around a bit and learn who you are as an independent adult.
Or you might discover you have a lot of unresolved trauma and fall into depressive states easily in the middle of a semester.
Probably not just a “me” thing.
I’m wondering how these things are connected in the brain to cause this specific mental state to be so widespread, it feels like a lightning rod
50% upbringing, 50% genetics
this deep longing I’ve felt my entire life, I was meant to exist in a different, inhuman world
but I am here and I am drowning
update: I wrote this at 2 am when I was half asleep
Thats me but was diagnosed and sent to a prison of a school for being bullied and running away. Hope that bully grew up to die in a ditch.
I was gifted Harry Potter 1 on my first school day and had read it through by the next morning. Fast forward to now: I haven‘t read an actual book in 2 years, too burned out by ADHD. Fuck me I guess!
Edit: also, fuck the school system.
I don’t know if it’ll work for you, but I often can’t read for long periods anymore either. Audiobooks aren’t enough stimulation on their own, but if I find a combo that uses just enough of my brain, I can make it through quite a bit.
For me personally, I play Mario Kart on a muted TV often while listening to books.
That‘s a good method, yes. I mostly listen to podcasts discussing books, which to me is the perfect level of stimulation. Might also try to listen to and read the same book simultaneously.
I mystified as to how bisexuality fits into all this.
Neurodivert folk seem to have an easier time not blindly going along with social norms simply because that is how everyone else behaves.
Yeah right make a post about being smart and gay and suddenly everyone can relate
It’s going bad, thanks!
I don’t know if I should feel better or worse knowing that I’m a whole ass archetype.
Yikes, this describes me eerily well.
The school system yes but also the problem is much deeper, as capitalism is a hell system that grinds away at human joy, stifles personal growth, and recontextualizes all genuine passion towards evil. In this essay I will-
